Ugly

I was uploading pictures of a crochet project into my flikr account earlier today. Two of those pictures, I have my newly made hat on my head. All I can say is that boy am I hideous. I'm just not attractive and can't find a bit of anything to focus on to make myself beleive that I am. I shouldn't be surprised because my family line, especially my father's side is all full of butt fugly and the generations are getting worse. Why should I have been any different. I just hate looking at myself in a mirror or in pictures. It's just depressing. Like I need anything else to make me more depressed.





I mean come on. Look at the fucking nose, double chin, well just everything. I don't think anybody reads this, but if you do, please don't patronize me by leaving comments telling me that I am attractive. Save the BS for someone else. Yes, you'll probably tell me not to be so down on myself. Well, I've never been told once that I looked good/atractive/cute/etc. There have been the "that outfit is really cute" or something of the sort, never one comment about me, not even to help boost my self-esteem. I can't even rember being told this as a child/teenager. I've tried dressing up/using make-up to feel good about myself. It. Doesn't. Work. I don't care what people say.


I gotta wonder why I bother. Bother staying here. Maybe I'll get into an accident and it'll kill my ugly ass.